Often, I liken the drafting and rewriting process to plucking the petals off daisies. I love my story. I love it not. Ever felt this way? Well, of course you have. The highs and lows of the writing process are like the give-and-take in a relationship.
Some days, I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. My mind is awake, stuck in story reverie. Sighs leave my heart as I wistfully whittle away my time, heavy with thoughts for my story and characters. All I want to do is spend with Story. Talk about Story. Dream about Story.
The honeymooning eventually fades into the mundane and I start to question if I ever loved my Story at all. I mean, really. We’re just so incompatible. The characters and I don’t see eye-to-eye anymore. The plot wasn’t as exciting as it seemed when it first courted my imagination. That’s it. I’m filing for irreconcilable differences.
But, as I start to pack away my Story belongings, ready to say goodbye, my heart twinges with memories. Remember when? All the good times? Maybe. Just maybe. Yes. I do. I really want to try and make this work. The sparks begin to rekindle as Story and I journey back over our adventures together. It will take hard work and personal sacrifices. Perhaps some counseling from a blog post. Or two. OK. Three blog posts. We apparently have a few things to work through.
I renew my vows and story dedication returns. Now, I burn with the passion of commitment to see this Story to the end. My fingers caress the keyboard, cherishing each word, each moment. How could I have ever though I didn’t love you, Story?
Oh. Yes. Now I remember. Why is it always about your needs, Story? What about mine? Like meeting deadlines, vitamin D, and seeing the world without eye-strain? I promised hard work and sacrifices, but this Story is just demanding too much of me. I can’t even. I just don’t know anymore.
Writing is a marriage between author and Story. There is a period of courtship, word fights, laughter, and tears. And coffee. Lots and lots of coffee. In the heat of drafting or revising, don’t worry about the highs and lows. Commitments are never easy, right? They require grit, perseverance, and copious amounts of patience. Always remember why you fell in love with your Story to begin with and then push yourself to stay the course. The highs are really too glorious to not fight for…
Jesikah Sundin is a sci/fi – fantasy writer mom of three nerdlets and devoted wife to a gamer geek. In addition to her family, she shares her home in Monroe, Washington with a red-footed tortoise, two gerbils, and a collection of seatbelt purses. She is addicted to coffee, laughing, and Doc Martens…oh, and the forest is her happy place.
She is the author of The Biodome Chronicles series.